Nerdy Mess.

Monday, November 20, 2006

i was so close to crying, twice today.

fcuked up day. everything seems so wrong. im pissed off by her.

The things i bought are horrible
The things she buys are wonderful.

if i make a purchase i must be wasting money
if she makes a a purchase, the money is well spent.

She is right to do wrong
and im wrong to do so.

oh stop insisting you are fair when you are not. your concept of fairness needs to be refined. you may dote on me. but you are terribly bias.

so terrible that it hurts me so much. its hard to force the smile.

i tried to live with it all these years. its tearing me apart.

ive always wanted to tell you this.

i wish i was loved by you, like how she was.

will i ?

mum, will i?

rolling: Rascal Flatts What Hurts The Most

Every now and again I pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me
What hurts the most, was being so close