a very very emo entry.

i broke the news and i think i got my heart shredded at the same time.

i told Irene (Renee's mum) that i didn't want to continue guiding Renee on her work.
i highlighted to her that Renee needed psychological help more than anything else.

She agreed readily.

I'm so upset. i couldn't have done better as a friend or tutor. but somehow i felt that i have failed both Renee and Irene.

You probably wont understand. you will simply go 'you did your best and that's all that matters'

i cant get over it
i cant seem to convince myself that i have done my best when my efforts yield nothing.

i'm sorry. i feel so bad now. this hurts more than anything.

this hurts more than not being placed on the honour roll.
This hurts more than having someone whom you once held in high regard misunderstood you.
This hurts more than anything.

Parting hurts and i'm feeling the pain.

i will miss tuesdays and thursdays.

Im sorry i wish i could have held on. but to persist is not gonna be in the benefit of anyone.

im sorry.