the picture of myself in the last entry is missing if you have noticed. took it down because i thought it was hurting my eyes.

didnt wish to blog that often. but was pretty down. so this may be a good place to channel my worries to. dont really wanna share this with my family or friends because i need no comfort. yes friends are reading the blog so dear all, i dont wanna hear a word about this if you figure your way out. please.

today's the 10th. anxiety is killing me. i kept telling myself god has a plan for me and so i can ask for no more. but im being greedy. ive hoped that his plans are in line with mine.

i wanna be there.

im sorry.