dont go along to get along. peace at any price is no peace at all.

ive been raising my voice at her so often these days. i dont wanna say this but she's really irritating. we have been quarreling every weekend.

even gisela doesnt wanna go on a tour with her. we were planning a holiday trip in december. i told them i dont wanna go because im sick of travelling. ive been to perth and hongkong/macau this year. a short getaway to tioman or batam would be cool but i dont wanna embark on a 10-10 shopping spree again. i had enough of such, really.

so anyway, i backed out and gisela doesnt wanna go without me or you can put it this way, she doesnt wanna go with her alone. we never wanna underestimate her ability to ruin a perfect holiday trip. you have no idea what ive been put through. its crazy man.

i wish i wasnt her daughter, or she wasnt my mum. yes, she loves me and yes her love is reciprocated. but she pisses me off every other second.

she's a dictator and she wants everything done her way. all of us have been putting up with her nonsense all these years. its taking too much to pull this family together now. i dont wanna be holding onto what i cant change.


i dont wanna live under her ruling
i dont wanna cry anymore for this woman i call mum.

im sorry if i havent been a good daughter. im gonna. stop trying to be one.


note: im just getting things off my chest. so dont msg me and ask me about this.
im fine.