Everyday's been a breeze since i killed education. Today was different. Today, i begin to worry. I begin to fret over my future and fear what tomorrow brings.

You know how back in school, our greatest worry is no more than what to have for lunch, how to flee from tutorials, and which movie should we catch.

Today, i worry alot more. I worry about regrets, I worry about progression, I worry about satisfaction.

I was told that i worry too much. So i say, i worry now so that i can avoid worrying later.

Its easy making a decision but hard to live with a wrong one. wtf, i think just uttered some crap ghandi would be so proud of. ok yes, I am trying really hard here to avoid a bad fate.

Moments ago, i caught a glimpse of van's blog. and van, i face the same crap you are going through now.

Ive got 2 jobs i may consider. It really sucks to choose because you got 50/50 chance of screwing up your future.

I am a risk taker but i dont gamble with my future.

I can take a horrible lunch, be caught for fleeing from tutorials, and catch a really crappy movie. But i get a second shot at not screwing up the very next day. I am given chances in school. I am allowed to err.

I am a student

The stakes just got higher when your not one.

But I am not a gambler.