i suck. i hate myself so much now. im such a let down. I know.i hate myself. I dont know how it happened but no excuses, i just suck. I shldnt have gone. I shouldnt. I hate how im such a HUGE disappointment. shame on me really.

i wanted to not fail the people i love. i wanted to prove that i have more self-discipline that what the past two experiences have shown otherwise. but i fucking fail. i fail.

i suck. CP YOU SUCK. go get a life and stop ruining others. CP YOU SUCK AND STOP BEING A LOAD TO OTHERS. YOU SUCK, LOSER.