i had a tough week, a really bad one. got off work at 1am every day only to come home feeling battered and bruised.

it gets worse when you take a stand and try to map things out.

it doesnt help that i am me, that i dig deep and ask for the best in everything i dive into. i think i may die from trying to live up to my own expectations.

i thought about quitting this entire week. i had to fight tears at the client's, correct stupid mistakes i commit, tell silly jokes to entertain and try not to fall into information traps my colleagues lay.

it gets tiring and so i was asked, 'wanna quit?'. friend got a firm 'no' from me. sure, its the easy way out but i dont quit on hiccups. you dont get to quit on what you have been building on for years. this isnt jenga where you could fall and start new. its about pushing for what you believe.

im fighting and will always do. i will leave when what im made for comes my way.... its exit when the door to equities trading opens.