that life changing weekend that we had in mind for a year now never came.

Today is a day that i will never forget.

Our checkbooks never came in use, flat never bought, hearts were broken, and hopes were lost.

Today is a day that i will remember.

I remembered the disappointment on your face and the sadnesss in your eyes.

Dearest boyfriend,

I am writing to tell you that through the four hours of wait we were put through today and the pain you are feeling now, I realized something invaluable. As we watched our choice units being striked off the list and as we desperately searched the floor plan for alternatives, i realized something invaluable.

I realized that you are the person that i want to spend every waking moment with. I realized that your disappointment and loss is mine. I realized that I have never wanted a unit there. I realized that all I have ever wanted today was standing right beside me all along. I realized that I am willing to look past my budget constraints and my pride if that brings me to you. I realized that I want a life with you more than anything.

It was a very disappointing day for me not because i lost my shot at a unit there. Neither was it because we got a lousy queue number and was defeated by fate. It was the dejected expression you wore, the thought of waiting another year before we could finally call a place our own.

That life changing event we had in mind never took place today. but my life has already changed when we first met. I remember how you were not interested in me at all back then. I remember how anxiously i was waiting for you to ask me out. I remember the flowers you gave. I remember them all.

I have you and that's all i want for now.

i love you and will always do.